Defining Moments

 

 

Defining moments in my life...

 

When I got married I became Phil's wife.

I became Mrs.

I was known and introduced as Phil's wife.

 I lived life as this person for 25 years.

 

When Black Rose was born,

I became P's Mom.

I am known by others as P's mom.

I have been her mom for 19 years of my life.

 

These were my 2 largest defining moments.

 

How many times have we each said

 I am no longer an individual,

 I have become someone's wife or mom?

 

I am not the perfect mother,

nor was I the perfect wife.

 

But how, can you tell me,

does one define themselves at this stage in life?

 

Is there a roadmap for this feeling of loss?

I mourn the loss of my friend.  I grieve.

Can I repair this gaping hole?

 

I  want just  to explore for awhile.

But I am so tired.

Listless and heavy.
 

I feel unable to breathe.

I can't catch my breath.

To find a Sea of Tranquility.
Wouldn't that be wonderful??

To reach and hold

Tranquility within myself ,
 the people and spaces around me.
 

Tranquility so that I can be here for my family. 

This is my quest. 

 

Going forward.

One breath at a time.

One step at a time. 

 

 

 

Remember that we can.
One breath at a time.
One step at a time.